I let you down

I let you down. When life threw me down, I didn’t get up. I didn’t know how. And when I tried to “get up”, your disgust and disappointment in me knocked me down again. And when you asked if I was going to “get up” and rejoin forces with you, you wanted absolutes that I […]

Screaming and no one knows

If the eyes are the windows to the soul, how often do people see your soul? For those, like me, with friends around the country, they don’t see my soul very often. We talk on the phone and text. Sometimes, I like to think that I’ve perfected the art of masking the emotion that tries […]

Gone

I’d heard the song before, but it always applied to someone else. “Why does my body ignore what my mind says?” Jill Scott sang. My mind told me he wasn’t any good. Despite the glint in his eyes and the way he held me, I knew. When he kissed my forehead, I inhaled and I […]

Too good to be true

When you’ve been alone for so long, it’s hard to trust. I want to, but we’re both guarded and afraid of getting hurt. Still, there’s hope. Leaving our distrust holstered, we entered a safe space to exchange our thoughts. He grew on me and I’d like to think that I grew on him. Words flowed […]

I’m afraid 

I’m afraid… … that this moment means more to me than it does to you. … that I’ve already started to shut down the possibility of others and you’re still looking. … that your words are really a Trojan horse for other intentions. … that when I make myself vulnerable, you’ll destroy me. I’m afraid […]

Tuck It

“You need to come out of it quickly.” It’s advice I received during one of my moments of depression. Yet I can’t help but wonder if this advice was just a push to get me out of the space I was in and make my presence more enjoyable.  In fact, the same person told me […]